All I want is to know what's wrong. My dear. That is all I want!

When god closes a door he always opens a window.
If you cant find the window then your not looking hard enough.

My nanna used to say that a lot.
And like most of the things she said it's true.

My drama exam tomoz and my group is going to fail big time.
Emma forgot the music again and then wouldn't act it out properly anyway.
Grrrrr!
 All she had to do was get music and she couldn't be bothered doing that !
And of course me in my anger at her kicked a chair and hurt myself.
Because of course anger doesn't pay!

And now I have to go to Borth and stay in a rubbish hotel for the weekend.
Do my family think I have nothing better to do.
Do they think I want to spend 3 hours in the car listening to my dad swear at the other cars and get in a mood at everyone who trys to talk to him?
Cause I don't!!

I should study for my math exam.
But there's no point cause I shouldn't be in top set math.
I'm rubbish at math. I may go and ask my math teacher to not bother and just move me down now.
At least David with have a seat.
The only reason I haven't is cause I know my mum is going to kill me when she finds out I'm going down.
She has made it clear that she will not be happy at all if she hears I'm moving down in any subject.

I really don't want her to be mad at me. But there's no point in me being somewhere where everyone is better than me and deserves their place there.

Silly life !

"I'm always there for you, and I'll do whatever you say.
I'm always there if you need to talk.
I'll stand by you. Right or wrong.
and I'll always give you a hug.
Only problem is you don't want me there.
You don't think you need me there.
Cause you'd rather tell someone who doesn't really care everything.
Than you would tell me one little thing."

Letter to someone who thinks, I don't give a toss.
"Dear _________"


One day you'll play for me,
Like you have done for her.
So many times before.

One day you'll tell me
All she knows and more.
Cause you'll know I care for you more.

If you saw inside my head you'd know
I need you to talk to me more.
I'm not jealous.
I'm cold with hurt.
Because I know I'll never be as good as her.
You'll always love her more.
Cause I'll never be as good as her.