Scars ( David) -trustlights

Whenever the spirit from God came upon Saul, David would take his harp and play.
Then relief would come to Saul; he would feel better, and the evil spirit would leave him.....

*Guitar*


So David came to me last night.
Said he'd try and make it right.
Played a tune ,that made me weep.
Now I fear I'll never sleep.
Guess David lied.

My scars spell out your name.
Old or new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.

Blood that falls from the sky.
Tears that hide in your eyes.
All the same he said to me.
Always flowing secretly.

My scars spell out your name.
Old and new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.

David,David
play your tune.
How do you know what I've been through?
David,David
Sing your song.
You only judge what you know is wrong.

My scars spell your name always the same.
Always the same.
Always the same.

The evil spirit will leave him as it did once before.
But it never really disappeared.
It was there forever more.

Only you can see

I'm so worried about you and I don't know what to do.
Maybe I need mental help , guess what so do you.
May be I was stupid thinking I could help.
Guess I'm just unwell in the head.
Is this better than being dead?
That's how this all seems.

Can you tell me what I'm supposed to to be.
So I can do the opposite of me.
My feelings will never let me be.

This is that hidden side of me that only you can see.

I only feel what's so unreal .
The light of each and every situation
You lied!
Your not always there for me.
Is this how it's meant to be?
Serves me right for learning to trust.
How stupid can I be?

This is the hidden side of me that only you can see.

Why don't you trust in me.
Like you made me trust in you.

You lied,you lied,you lied,you lied,you lied.
Your not always there for me.
you lied ,you lied ,you lied ,you lied.
You don't trust me.
I cried,I cried,I cry.
You lied, you lied ,you lie.
Your not always there for me.

Falling beyond the point of no return. Nothing to become and nothing left to burn.

I hadn't looked at my phone since lunch time,until I wrote my last blog.
Not that it matters just thought I'd say.


Gary Numan-one perfect lie

One

One perfect lie


Was it told too soon
And one
one perfect lie
Turned to stone
Cold mercy

I kneel down by your grave
I kneel down torn and guilty

Did I let you down
Say goodbye too soon
And did you understand
My mistake
Forgive me


I kneel down by your side
I kneel down scared and helpless


One perfect lie
Wrapped in kindness and tears
I wish I believed in your Heaven


One perfect lie
Led by blind faith and trust
If God has a heart He will find you


Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
I'm torn and guilty

It's getting dark in here - Elton John

It's getting dark in here

Don't want to leave
Shadow's falling
And I believe
Winds picking up
Thing's so unclear
I'm afraid of my shadow
And it's getting dark in here

I'm scared of strangers
On the street
World's so ugly
I can't breath
Moon's so spooky
I'm close to tears
I've lost it all
And it's getting dark in here


And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here


Don't talk about angels
Or how I'll be saved
I'm no coward
But I'm not that brave
Rags are blowing
Rain's getting near
I'm done with running
And it's getting dark in here


And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here


Yeah, the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here

+=(

I hate the way you read my mind,

like you've known me all the time.

I hate that your always right,

No matter what you say.

I hate the way your better than me,

in every single way.

I hate the way you lie,

like I can't see the difference.

I hate the way your not around,

when I need you most.

I hate the way you don't reply,

and that it always makes me cry.

And most of all I hate the way I care about you.

and that I would do anything for you.

No matter what you give me in return.

=(

We're smiling but we're close to tears.

Saturday was rubbish.
I had a pope party to go to.
20 questions on different popes....I was rubbish at it.
I got 3 out of all of the questions we played.
The only person worse at this game was my dad who got 0 right.
Haha!
If I hear the word pope again I will scream.

Today was wired.
It was nostalgic.
I walked the whole of Coedpoeth cause I didn't feel like going home.

It's strange how powerful memories can be.
How much they can influence what I do now and at the same time how much I never learn from them.
It's sad really but there we go.

Everyone lies.
We've all done it ...
But I feel really bad about this time.
Even though at the time I thought it was okay it didn't seem like that big a lie.
Now I know it was a mistake cause I feel bad.
I'm not sure which is worse...
The fact that I lied about something small that was really wrong.
or the fact that its back fired on me cause now I wish I had told you the truth.

Silly me.
XX
Nights to you all.

Little girl lost,Little girl trust,Little girl feel what you must.

Yesterday me and another girl made a cake in the microwave and it came out like rubber.
It bounced like a ball. It was dead awesome.

Today was school
School is boring.

You broke the bridge.
Let the water through.
Cut the cord between me and you.
I should have seen that coming.
Those sort of things always do.

I wish you had told me trust was such a bitch.
You said I could tell you anything.
But trust is a two way thing.

It always hurts to see you upset.

Now I know the truth ..you just don't talk to me anymore.

So I went to school.
Then I went home.
Now I'm here soon I shall leave.
so.............
Thats it really.





Nine inch nails -Gave up

Perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most

Forgot how it feels well almost
No one to blame always the same
Open my eyes wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize?
It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what i believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust i will betray
Give it to me i throw it away
After everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away

Evanescence-Imaginary

I linger in the doorway

Of alarm clocks screaming,
monsters calling my name

Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As there falling
Tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don't say I'm not in touch
With this rampant chaos
Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare i built my own world to escape

In my field of paper flowers

And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot stop for the fear of silent lies.
Oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers

And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Cause my mum scremed when Enrique Iglesias came on the tv.
God bless her.

"Hero"



Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?


Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.


Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.


I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.


Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.


I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.


I can be your hero.








Mack & Mabel- I Won't Send Roses.


I won't send roses

Or hold the door
I won't remember
Which dress you wore
My heart is too much in control
The lack of romance in my soul
Will turn you grey, kid
So stay away, kid
Forget my shoulder
When you're in need
Forgetting birthdays
Is guaranteed
And should I love you, you would be
The last to know
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so...

 My pace is frantic
My temper's cross
With words romantic
I'm at a loss
I'd be the first one to agree
That I'm preoccupied with me
And it's inbred, kid
So keep your head, kid
In me you'll find things
Like guts and nerve
But not the kind of things
That you deserve
And so while there's a fighting chance
Just turn and go
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.

Shadow kissed lover.
Empathy of night.
Taken away from the warmth of light.
You need love,as do I.
Sad little boy, hidden from life.
Nothing but a copy of what I've seen before.
Your eyes in the moon light.
Know only whats true.
Your lips so gentle against the folds of a lie.
Scars so deep fall into place.
I've never felt anything like this.

I love you, more than you know.
You take all my fields and paint them gold.

I come back again

Feelin so high,
Bitch, let me down.
I won't conform to your rules right now.
Break me and take me.
Do I look like I care?
The fact of the matter is you weren't there.

Discarded
God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again

Set me on fire cause I like to feel.
All the endeavors that don't matter to you.
She said she don't love you.
Well may be I don't care.
Let's be honest it weren't going anywhere.

Discarded

God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again


Again I try to help you out.
Again I get a kick in the mouth.
Again I try to make believe.
Again you got me on my knees.

A.g.a.i.n  A.g.a.i.n
Again!

May be all I wanna help you out.
May be I'm the one it don't matter about.
May be I like small talk.
Again it's always my fault.
Again you push me to the ground.
Again I come back around.

Again bitch Again.
Always again.
Do you think I don't care.
Bet you wish I wasn't there.
I'll just keep coming back.
Again Again Again.
You can't get rid of me.
That easily.
I'll always come back again.
Again again again.

The past that holds me makes me weep.
While the rest of the world can soundly sleep.


I am alone.
But still not free.
You can't see what you mean to me.
I wish you knew that You need me.
Just as much as I need you.


Fallen Immortal.
Look into his eyes.
See the tears he refuses to cry.
When the day closes in
Feel the fear that radiates from within.
My winged immortal.
Fallen from grace.
Carry me till the day awakes.
As you leave me just know this.
You are the only on I miss.

:-)

I went to town yesterday.
I bought nothing much, just lunch.
Today I went out with my family cause my mum has to go back to work tomorrow.
Only problem was that when we got home my dad was grumpy cause he was hungry, So I've spent most of tonight trying to not make a noise and stay out of his way as much as possible.
So that's it really.
Well that and my dad used the last of the printer ink on a picture of a motor bike in front of a mountain.
So now I can't get my homework of my laptop.
Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm having problems waking up at 8 and on Friday I have to wake up at 6:30 for school.

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