Tell me everything will be alright

Close your eyes and dream of me tonight.
Tell me that you won't just fade away.

Can you forget the memories, or have you already forgotten me

New blogger is scary

It's all too big !!!


If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart?
Blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it - lyrics

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Hello, I won't keep you long just thought I'd blog, while I'm here. This wasn't the original post , the original is gone. As it should be. It had no place in this world so I moved it on. And now all I have is wondering , if I had left it hanging around, what would of happened. Life my dear bloggers (or just the one person who read my last post) that is what would of happened. Life goes on, and so it would have gone ...on. Until that old person eventually gets round to hitting me with their electric scooter , then my life at least will stop, or rather the life I knew would stop and then whatever is after life would happen. Either way the rest of you will keep turning with the world, and you can all forget me , because it will be easier if you do. And I shall party on in your memory. In every hug, in every laugh in every mad dance and game play that you can repress.

Oh dear I hope that doesn't sound like I am going to do something silly I am not just musing really. That's how the best ideas start , with a muse. Just a dip into something that you will probably forget later on. And revisit some other time.


Anyway I digress, my point is that however we do it we should all have a nice life and we should all make the best of a situation given to us. No matter how shitty.
and just in case that scooter does come around the corner when I get up I shall say this.
You mean so much too me, I will always be there if you need me, for anything at all. I am sorry if I have every let you down. I didn't mean to and I regret it always. I hope you find happiness in whatever you chose to do. I will always remember you. I will always help you in any way that I can.
I hope you know I will always be around if you need me too be.
There is great privilege in being needed by someone. I will always be your someone to cry on, even if you don't want me to be.




And you means you, you who is reading this, you are anyone who knows me.
You are great =)

Have a good day now y'all

Green day and mish-mash, but hey at least theres chocolate.

Hey, happy Easter. Thought I'd blog. No-one reads this anymore so may as well.


I thought about you again today.
Every night the same old pain.
Lips like sugar , memories like candy.
You can leave me, but I have no where else to go.

 Green day-Disappearing Boy

When I walk in crowded rooms
I feel as if it is my doom
I know that I don't belong
In that room I see her
I see her and she's with him
I turn and then I'm gone

Don't call me up 'cause I'm not home
My whereabouts are now unknown
I vanished from all your joy
I'm the disappearing boy


Green day- 16

Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older and older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you're a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead?

Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair?

Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they've had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain

Green day-Road To Acceptance

I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance

And I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting
(Do you feel the same?)
(Do you feel the same?)
Adolescence
Just can't make sense
(It's calling my name)
(It's calling my name)

I take a look around
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred
If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realise that
We're all the same

It's just like our brain
When it goes insaneWe feel the same pain

All my life I've seemed to have this need
I think at times it even turns to greed
We all want to join some family
We'll even sacrifice a moral changing

And I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting
(Do you feel the same?)
(Do you feel the same?)
Adolescence
Just can't make sense
(It's calling my name)

Green day- Outsider

I messed up everyone
I've already had all my fun
More troubles are gonna come
I've already had all my fun
Oh yeah yeah yeah

Everybody try to push me
Push me around
Everybody try to put me
Try to put me down

Oh I'm an outsider outside of everything
Oh I'm an outsider outside of everything
Oh I'm an outsider outside of everything
Everything you know
Everything you know
It disturbs me so

Green day-Misery

they're gonna get high high high
When they're low low low
The fire burns from better days
And she screams why oh why
I said I don't know
The catastrophic hymns from yesterday
Of misery

Hell hounds on your trail now once again boy
It's groping on your leg until it sleeps
The emptiness will fill your soul with sorrow
'Cause it's not what you make it's what you leave

Read in between the lines,
of what you see.
Everything you learnt today,
Are you worried about me?
Or just scared, seeing yourself in my misery.
When he leaves you I will be your company.
Until then  just let me fade away. 



Are you surprised?
My life is all a lie.
I spun a web of your sympathy,
to get you all onside.
Are you surprised?
I sold it all for one night.
To watch you all from the eternal afterlife.


Did you read it all,
Did you see
Just a little part of me,
in each line or each word a piece of yourself.
When he trades you in, for a better model.
You can see it coming, everytime he pulls you in.