I don't have big thank you speeches like everyone else
It's not that you don't deserve one you all do, of course.
But if you know me well enough then you already know what I'm gonna thank you all for.
All I can say is it's New year so even if I have been upset or annoyed with you in 2010 then all I can say is sorry but I still have a Thank you for you even if you don't want one and to be honest everyone I know deserves one, because I have never met someone I haven't learned something from.
So all I can say now is thank you for reading my blog this year and hope you will continue into the next.
bye-bye 2010
I shall see you again only in memories of days once spent
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Friday, 31 December 2010
Saturday, 25 December 2010
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
and a BIG happy birthday to Jesus Christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
Merry Christmas
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Merry Christmas
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Friday, 24 December 2010
It's christmas eve!!!!!!
I am excited and not as ill!!
whoot!!!
Santa's coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!
I have nothing at all to blog cause i did nothing yesterday.
Can't wait for tomorrow
Even if it is just the traditinol type one that we have every year with the annoying family and presents and my taid falling asleep in the chair. IT'S STILL FUN .
I won't be online tomorrow so i shall wish you all a Merry Christmas now!!!!!!!!!
=)
whoot!!!
Santa's coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!
I have nothing at all to blog cause i did nothing yesterday.
Can't wait for tomorrow
Even if it is just the traditinol type one that we have every year with the annoying family and presents and my taid falling asleep in the chair. IT'S STILL FUN .
I won't be online tomorrow so i shall wish you all a Merry Christmas now!!!!!!!!!
=)
Thursday, 23 December 2010
It's christmas eve,eve!!!!!!!!
and I'm ill which is just rubbish.but I shall live to fight another day.
So I shall tell you about the dream I had the other day, cause people have asked so.... Just keep in mind it's a little wired.
I was going down the high street when i got chased by a black pig so I ran to my nannas house, only there were stairs going down to the house (which aren't there in reality) and I saw my uncles dead body lying at the side of the house in the corner and I knew my nanna had killed him, So I swore and ran to my house and rang the police, Then I went to school and I was on top of some stairs when I heard a load of lad talking about a dead body that had been found, then I ran down the staris towards them and the media teacher was coming up and he was blocking the way , but i knew that my uncles body was down there so I tried to get passed but he would'nt let me... then i woke up.
so thats it in all it's wiredness....
......
anyway merry christmas eve,eve
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So I shall tell you about the dream I had the other day, cause people have asked so.... Just keep in mind it's a little wired.
I was going down the high street when i got chased by a black pig so I ran to my nannas house, only there were stairs going down to the house (which aren't there in reality) and I saw my uncles dead body lying at the side of the house in the corner and I knew my nanna had killed him, So I swore and ran to my house and rang the police, Then I went to school and I was on top of some stairs when I heard a load of lad talking about a dead body that had been found, then I ran down the staris towards them and the media teacher was coming up and he was blocking the way , but i knew that my uncles body was down there so I tried to get passed but he would'nt let me... then i woke up.
so thats it in all it's wiredness....
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anyway merry christmas eve,eve
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Wednesday, 22 December 2010
3 SLEEPS TILL CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whoot whoot!!
been shopping with family today
good god it was painful
I now know why I don't do it more often.
Also does anyone know any good websites that are supposed to tell you what you'r dreams mean.
I don't usually do that sort of thing , but I had a really wired dream last night and it freaked me out a bit so I'd really like to know, or at least be given some idea.
been shopping with family today
good god it was painful
I now know why I don't do it more often.
Also does anyone know any good websites that are supposed to tell you what you'r dreams mean.
I don't usually do that sort of thing , but I had a really wired dream last night and it freaked me out a bit so I'd really like to know, or at least be given some idea.
Tuesday, 21 December 2010
4 SLEEPS TILL CHRISTMAS
Super excited face.
I got my first birthday presant today as well.
tehehe
I like christmas!!!
I got my first birthday presant today as well.
tehehe
I like christmas!!!
Monday, 20 December 2010
Friday, 10 December 2010
Explain explain your dreams again.
I know them of by heart.
Make me drink my own poison, I've tasted it before.
But you know that like you know the scars of my past.
To many broken dreams have passed.
Upon my ocean bed.
Sleeps so far from each forged memory.
Each nightmare repeats the regrets.
of each day of each life in motion.
The snow and ice has melted
XXX
I know them of by heart.
Make me drink my own poison, I've tasted it before.
But you know that like you know the scars of my past.
To many broken dreams have passed.
Upon my ocean bed.
Sleeps so far from each forged memory.
Each nightmare repeats the regrets.
of each day of each life in motion.
The snow and ice has melted
XXX
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Wanna hold you wanna hold you tight!!!!
Yes I'm a bit paranoid and a bit wired too.
But everybodys got issues that they gotta work through.
So it took a hypocrite to show me I was wrong.
He poured his poison down my mouth and showed me I was to far gone.
And who would listen to his lies over and over again.
Just another hypocrite girl with a twisted sense of friend.
I can see you looking,looking at what you shouldn't be.
Yes I an see you taking that look when you thought nobody could see.
So take nice long look cause it's the only one your gonna get before
I have to crush your neck with one hand behind my back.
Just a little dream in the back of a torn mind.
Turned in to the very thing I want to hold in my hands.
Fold up every corner of this fragile broken soul glue it down and tape it up, like so many have tried before.
But I hope this time you used super glue cause nothing else will hold.
Hope this time you'll have some super glue for both of us to share.
Say it over say it again repeat it repeat it and may be then..
I'll believe you when you say it over and over again.
Repeat...repeat again again again.
I just wanna hear you say it................
Again again once more for today I wanna go to bed with that smile on my face.
Say it again again again.
random quotes!!!!!!!!!
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But everybodys got issues that they gotta work through.
So it took a hypocrite to show me I was wrong.
He poured his poison down my mouth and showed me I was to far gone.
And who would listen to his lies over and over again.
Just another hypocrite girl with a twisted sense of friend.
I can see you looking,looking at what you shouldn't be.
Yes I an see you taking that look when you thought nobody could see.
So take nice long look cause it's the only one your gonna get before
I have to crush your neck with one hand behind my back.
Just a little dream in the back of a torn mind.
Turned in to the very thing I want to hold in my hands.
Fold up every corner of this fragile broken soul glue it down and tape it up, like so many have tried before.
But I hope this time you used super glue cause nothing else will hold.
Hope this time you'll have some super glue for both of us to share.
Say it over say it again repeat it repeat it and may be then..
I'll believe you when you say it over and over again.
Repeat...repeat again again again.
I just wanna hear you say it................
Again again once more for today I wanna go to bed with that smile on my face.
Say it again again again.
random quotes!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, 5 December 2010
Friday, 3 December 2010
Boom Boom Boom
Katy Perry-Firework
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon.
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon.
Wednesday, 1 December 2010
And it's still snowing it's still snowing But I don't get a day off school!
Oh dear.............. It's cold!!!!!!!!
Saturday, 27 November 2010
Babe today you made me remember what it felt like to have no control.
Need that call,needed to know. Why am I hurting so?
Is it you is it me the repeat of what she told me before is all I can hear resounding like the drum beat,all over again.
I wanted to do no wrong like i did before don't make me fall so far, can't hear my own thoughts anymore.
She told me she loved you. Couldn't help but hold out my hand.
I needed you more than you can ever understand.
Close your eyes so you can't see that little lie that you believe.
and I'll say it all over again but I no you'll believe what you've heard for too long.
I ain't gonna save what doesn't wanna be held by my hand.
You get to choose if your in or out.
I wanna keep you warm on the dark winter night wanna keep you away from their cold hard spite.
In my arms tonight.
She wanted what she had and I took the candy from the baby's hands.
Now she cry's each night and I say I don't care for the look she gives you when she thinks I can't see.
Take a cup of cold tears mixed in with my own damn hard faced fear.
Drink it up dol it will keep you for a thousand years..
Take my blood with my heart so I don't leave a mess on the stone floor.
Don't need anybody to be reminded of me.
The stalker, the wiredo that's always been me.
But your wrapped up in lies you can't even see.
Wish that was me,
Who couldn't see?
Close your eyes so you can't see that little lie that you believe.
and I'll say it all over again but I no you'll believe what you've heard for too long.
I ain't gonna save what doesn't wanna be held by my hand.
You get to choose if your in or out.
I wanna keep you warm on the dark winter night wanna keep you away from their cold hard spite.
In my arms tonight.
I wanna keep you safe if you'll let me.
And if we save you, then there's hope for me.
if I save you then we could save me in the process.
And there is hope
Need that call,needed to know. Why am I hurting so?
Is it you is it me the repeat of what she told me before is all I can hear resounding like the drum beat,all over again.
I wanted to do no wrong like i did before don't make me fall so far, can't hear my own thoughts anymore.
She told me she loved you. Couldn't help but hold out my hand.
I needed you more than you can ever understand.
Close your eyes so you can't see that little lie that you believe.
and I'll say it all over again but I no you'll believe what you've heard for too long.
I ain't gonna save what doesn't wanna be held by my hand.
You get to choose if your in or out.
I wanna keep you warm on the dark winter night wanna keep you away from their cold hard spite.
In my arms tonight.
She wanted what she had and I took the candy from the baby's hands.
Now she cry's each night and I say I don't care for the look she gives you when she thinks I can't see.
Take a cup of cold tears mixed in with my own damn hard faced fear.
Drink it up dol it will keep you for a thousand years..
Take my blood with my heart so I don't leave a mess on the stone floor.
Don't need anybody to be reminded of me.
The stalker, the wiredo that's always been me.
But your wrapped up in lies you can't even see.
Wish that was me,
Who couldn't see?
Close your eyes so you can't see that little lie that you believe.
and I'll say it all over again but I no you'll believe what you've heard for too long.
I ain't gonna save what doesn't wanna be held by my hand.
You get to choose if your in or out.
I wanna keep you warm on the dark winter night wanna keep you away from their cold hard spite.
In my arms tonight.
I wanna keep you safe if you'll let me.
And if we save you, then there's hope for me.
if I save you then we could save me in the process.
And there is hope
Wednesday, 24 November 2010
rawr
So I got a problem
The worlds dragging me down ,and away
scared I could drown .
Keep me floating, just bobbing along on your golden lace smile.
Give me a drink of your laugh and I'm gonna
get the strength to keep you in my arms forever.
Fit ball was awesome.
keep the ball between your legs now roll over it!!! lol
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The worlds dragging me down ,and away
scared I could drown .
Keep me floating, just bobbing along on your golden lace smile.
Give me a drink of your laugh and I'm gonna
get the strength to keep you in my arms forever.
Fit ball was awesome.
keep the ball between your legs now roll over it!!! lol
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Saturday, 13 November 2010
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FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to bed with a smile on my face!!!!
Nobody spoil it for me please cause right now i'm on cloud nine!!!
And it is awsome.
praise where it's due thank you Sofiah.
I am really happy nows.
FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to bed with a smile on my face!!!!
Nobody spoil it for me please cause right now i'm on cloud nine!!!
And it is awsome.
praise where it's due thank you Sofiah.
I am really happy nows.
Thursday, 11 November 2010
Drink up dol. She needs to taste the truth.
Went to see Paramore yesterday!!!
It was awsome I had a great time But I am really tired now !!!
rawr
It was awsome I had a great time But I am really tired now !!!
rawr
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
Please stop touching my dreams. They are all I have left.
We had to do a Media thing today.
It was really boring.
What the hell have you done to your wrist!!
What??
That cut straight down the middle of it
Dad........That's henna
What??
Henna tattoo Laura did it.
Ohhhhhh Well that's okay then.
You gotta laugh at him sometimes
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I put my trust in you .
Now it hurts,I guess I should have known better.
I should have known better and now I pay the price.
I'm sorry, That's what I said.
But why should I be.
If I hurt you.
Cause you hurt me.
But I got lost inside.
Inside the lies.
Did everything you try go wrong?
Or was trying just too long.
You can't know.
How you hurt me?
But damn I wish you could see
The damage that you've done too me.
You knew it took a lot to make me trust.
Trust in you.
Now it hurts,I guess I was right and I should have known better.
I was right but now I pay the price.
I wish I could say You lost a friend.
Lost a friend in me.
But you didn't You can still trust in me.
It ain't that much of a two way thing.
I'd never tell a soul what you told me.
Revenge don't seem too sweet.
Now I pay the price.
I should have known better and you made me pay the price.
I was right!
Nock'um'dead-Trust is my price
It was really boring.
What the hell have you done to your wrist!!
What??
That cut straight down the middle of it
Dad........That's henna
What??
Henna tattoo Laura did it.
Ohhhhhh Well that's okay then.
You gotta laugh at him sometimes
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I put my trust in you .
Now it hurts,I guess I should have known better.
I should have known better and now I pay the price.
I'm sorry, That's what I said.
But why should I be.
If I hurt you.
Cause you hurt me.
But I got lost inside.
Inside the lies.
Did everything you try go wrong?
Or was trying just too long.
You can't know.
How you hurt me?
But damn I wish you could see
The damage that you've done too me.
You knew it took a lot to make me trust.
Trust in you.
Now it hurts,I guess I was right and I should have known better.
I was right but now I pay the price.
I wish I could say You lost a friend.
Lost a friend in me.
But you didn't You can still trust in me.
It ain't that much of a two way thing.
I'd never tell a soul what you told me.
Revenge don't seem too sweet.
Now I pay the price.
I should have known better and you made me pay the price.
I was right!
Nock'um'dead-Trust is my price
Monday, 1 November 2010
So what u gonna do!!
Ooh, when the tears fall away
And there's no conversation
There's nothing left to break
That's not already broken
You're staring into space
And every inch of silence
Been standing here for days
And days
Said it all
Nothing to say at all
Nothing to say that matters
Haven't we heard enough
Said it all
Nothing to say at all
Nothing to say that matters
Doesn't matter, anymore
All of the miles of words we've spoken
All of the lines that got away
Didn't we take the time to say them all?
Take that -said it all
Cause I'm wired like that!!!
And there's no conversation
There's nothing left to break
That's not already broken
You're staring into space
And every inch of silence
Been standing here for days
And days
Said it all
Nothing to say at all
Nothing to say that matters
Haven't we heard enough
Said it all
Nothing to say at all
Nothing to say that matters
Doesn't matter, anymore
All of the miles of words we've spoken
All of the lines that got away
Didn't we take the time to say them all?
Take that -said it all
Cause I'm wired like that!!!
Your blog made me cry??
Why??
I swear I'm going soppy!!
Oasis-Stop crying your heart out
Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile) shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up) come on (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared...)
You'll never change what's been and gone
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of the stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out.
Why??
I swear I'm going soppy!!
Oasis-Stop crying your heart out
Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile) shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up) come on (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared...)
You'll never change what's been and gone
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of the stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us someday
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out.
Saturday, 30 October 2010
So here's your holiday. Enjoy it this time you gave it all away. It was mine!!
James 1:13
Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man.
It's almost Halloween!!!!!
Not that it's my favorite holiday but at least I get to eat the leftover sweets!!!!!!!!
Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man.
It's almost Halloween!!!!!
Not that it's my favorite holiday but at least I get to eat the leftover sweets!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
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Blind will bleed the blind
When the only thing to see is their lies
Let not the sun go down
On the wrath of this inconvenient truth
Fightstar- floods.
She made you drown in that smile.
If only for a while.
Did you think you could hide,
From the dark inside?
I can cut you down to size.
If you need me again.
Starlight train- A smile will make you cave
Downpour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean, I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
I can't feel my feet touching the ground
Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me
Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again
Jars of clay- flood
Drinkin what I made again.
It tastes like the darkness.
like your soul.
But sweeter and a damn site more secure.
Hold on to the light but you can't really see.
Whats always right in front.
Of your big brown eyes.
Yes I got caught.
In the floods of your eyes.
But everyone else did to.
Wish I was smarter cause now it's harder too escape.
The floods of your deep chocolate pools.
I need to get out of your ever long gaze before it's too late.
( It was too late the day I let go)
You made me let you in with those big brown eyes.
Stuck in my soul like a sin.
Lairs of sin- Big brown eyes.
Stuff I heard today
When the only thing to see is their lies
Let not the sun go down
On the wrath of this inconvenient truth
Fightstar- floods.
She made you drown in that smile.
If only for a while.
Did you think you could hide,
From the dark inside?
I can cut you down to size.
If you need me again.
Starlight train- A smile will make you cave
Downpour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean, I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
I can't feel my feet touching the ground
Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me
Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again
Jars of clay- flood
Drinkin what I made again.
It tastes like the darkness.
like your soul.
But sweeter and a damn site more secure.
Hold on to the light but you can't really see.
Whats always right in front.
Of your big brown eyes.
Yes I got caught.
In the floods of your eyes.
But everyone else did to.
Wish I was smarter cause now it's harder too escape.
The floods of your deep chocolate pools.
I need to get out of your ever long gaze before it's too late.
( It was too late the day I let go)
You made me let you in with those big brown eyes.
Stuck in my soul like a sin.
Lairs of sin- Big brown eyes.
Stuff I heard today
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Remember children Jesus loves you.
I haven't really been on blog for a while cause there has been nothing much to report.
Had an AGM on Monday
Which is basically an Assembly where all the parents and different leaders and the kids all turn up Then all 3 scouting groups take part (Beavers,Cubs and Scouts) Then the main Leader tells the parents what goes on in the comity. Then they all go get cake and a cup of tea.
The cake and the tea being the only reason most of the parents turn up.
It was painful
First Jeni gave me he job of doing the register and trying to make the parents pay they're money.
Only most of the parents that needed to pay went out of there way to avoid me and she left me nothing to mark the register and nothing to put the money in once I got it.
and all the parents seem to have a really annoying habit of all turning up at the same time.
Then Jeni started messing around with face paint when we needed to be in the other room for the AGM.
The I got given the job of sorting out which kids get to give Donna flowers (cause Donna left at Christmas due to illness and isn't coming back) But I had to do this while I was reading out my part of the AGM.
The they brought out the cake and biscuits and the room was vibrating it was so loud.
Then Donna tried to talk to me which was just wired and awkward.
And today was school which was really boring and I'm now at the point were I 've stopped taking it all in. I need my holiday and I'm really tired which is just annoying cause by the time I wake up it's half way through the day.
And we had an R.S test today and chances are I have failed.
But I really don't see how it's going to help me.
Then again Welsh poetry seems to be most of the same thoughts.
When in later life am I going to need a poem about a fox or the homeless or a factory closing!
That my people is what is called a rant.
I shall say Goodnight now
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Had an AGM on Monday
Which is basically an Assembly where all the parents and different leaders and the kids all turn up Then all 3 scouting groups take part (Beavers,Cubs and Scouts) Then the main Leader tells the parents what goes on in the comity. Then they all go get cake and a cup of tea.
The cake and the tea being the only reason most of the parents turn up.
It was painful
First Jeni gave me he job of doing the register and trying to make the parents pay they're money.
Only most of the parents that needed to pay went out of there way to avoid me and she left me nothing to mark the register and nothing to put the money in once I got it.
and all the parents seem to have a really annoying habit of all turning up at the same time.
Then Jeni started messing around with face paint when we needed to be in the other room for the AGM.
The I got given the job of sorting out which kids get to give Donna flowers (cause Donna left at Christmas due to illness and isn't coming back) But I had to do this while I was reading out my part of the AGM.
The they brought out the cake and biscuits and the room was vibrating it was so loud.
Then Donna tried to talk to me which was just wired and awkward.
And today was school which was really boring and I'm now at the point were I 've stopped taking it all in. I need my holiday and I'm really tired which is just annoying cause by the time I wake up it's half way through the day.
And we had an R.S test today and chances are I have failed.
But I really don't see how it's going to help me.
Then again Welsh poetry seems to be most of the same thoughts.
When in later life am I going to need a poem about a fox or the homeless or a factory closing!
That my people is what is called a rant.
I shall say Goodnight now
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Friday, 15 October 2010
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One year
Since your holy land came to pass.
Knew you wouldn't last
But I still hoped anyway.
One year
Do you see me?
Eyes of black
One year
Is nothing but fast.
Tears breed seas and burn through rivers.
The ones left below are never the winners.
One year
It's been a long fortnight.
and a really long week.
and an extremely long day.
I need my holiday soon.
Since your holy land came to pass.
Knew you wouldn't last
But I still hoped anyway.
One year
Do you see me?
Eyes of black
One year
Is nothing but fast.
Tears breed seas and burn through rivers.
The ones left below are never the winners.
One year
It's been a long fortnight.
and a really long week.
and an extremely long day.
I need my holiday soon.
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
Out of some sentimental gain I wanted you to feel my pain, but it came back return to sender.
You knew when I was wrong
You knew that I’m deranged
I can see that you’re uneasy and its not gonna change
And no matter how far
Wherever you
Wherever you go I’m callin
Even when you’re breaking my heart
Wherever you go I’m crawlin
Even when we’re falling
Even when we’re falling apart
Yeah looks like were fallin apart
All American rejects-Fallin apart
I've had some really deep conversations today.
Especially with Bronwen which surprised me cause I wasn't expecting it.
and it was nice
Mostly cause she let me tell her a load of stuff but I didn't have to go into detail cause she never made me, and because I told her stuff from months back that ,yes I should have said to the people that had upset/annoyed me at the time. But it was still really awesome.
And cause she told me some of the stuff I wanted to hear even though most of it was a lie.
It didn't matter cause she had tried to make me feel better and it worked.
and while she did all this she still showed me that some of the stuff I'd done was wrong and the immaturity I had shown.
In lighter news
My welsh teacher told tales on my welsh class again Only this time she snitched to the head of our key stage rather than the head of welsh.
So we got 15 minutes of Eleri Lewis going on about the school results.
Wow it was boring.
and ABCH was just funny.
No tutor and a free lesson always good.
Robbie Williams-Eternity
Close your eyes so you don't fear them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you
You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity
Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon
You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity
For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon
You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom
Eventually
For eternity
For eternity
You knew that I’m deranged
I can see that you’re uneasy and its not gonna change
And no matter how far
Wherever you
Wherever you go I’m callin
Even when you’re breaking my heart
Wherever you go I’m crawlin
Even when we’re falling
Even when we’re falling apart
Yeah looks like were fallin apart
All American rejects-Fallin apart
I've had some really deep conversations today.
Especially with Bronwen which surprised me cause I wasn't expecting it.
and it was nice
Mostly cause she let me tell her a load of stuff but I didn't have to go into detail cause she never made me, and because I told her stuff from months back that ,yes I should have said to the people that had upset/annoyed me at the time. But it was still really awesome.
And cause she told me some of the stuff I wanted to hear even though most of it was a lie.
It didn't matter cause she had tried to make me feel better and it worked.
and while she did all this she still showed me that some of the stuff I'd done was wrong and the immaturity I had shown.
In lighter news
My welsh teacher told tales on my welsh class again Only this time she snitched to the head of our key stage rather than the head of welsh.
So we got 15 minutes of Eleri Lewis going on about the school results.
Wow it was boring.
and ABCH was just funny.
No tutor and a free lesson always good.
Robbie Williams-Eternity
Close your eyes so you don't fear them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you
You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity
Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon
You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity
For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon
You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom
Eventually
For eternity
For eternity
Wednesday, 6 October 2010
rawr
The first song that came up when I typed in 'songs' on the internet
Kiss the girl-Disneys the little mermaid
Sebastien:(spoken)
Eef you want somet'in done, you gotta do eet yoaself
Percussion,
Strings,
Winds,
Words
There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say,
But there's something about her.
And you don't know why,
But you're dying to try
You wanna,
Kiss the girl
Yes, you want her
Look at her you know you do
Possible she wants you too,
there is one way to ask her.
It don't take a word,
Not a single word, go on and
Kiss the Girl (sing wit' me now)
Frogs & Sebastien:
Sha la la la la la
My oh my
Look like the boy too shy
He ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Ain't that sad
Ain't it a shame, too bad
You're gonna miss the girl,
(dialogue)
Sebastien:
Now's your moment
(ya ya)
Floating in a blue lagoon
(ya ya ya)
Boy you better do it soon
No time will be better
(ya ya ya ya ya)
She don't say a word
And she won't say a word until you, kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Don't be scared
You've got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Don't stop now
Don't try to hide it how, you wanna
Kiss the girl (woah-woah!)
Sha la la la la la
Float along, and listen to the song
The song say, kiss the girl
Sha la la la la
The music play
Do what the music says
You gotta, kiss the girl
Kiss the girl-Disneys the little mermaid
Sebastien:(spoken)
Eef you want somet'in done, you gotta do eet yoaself
Percussion,
Strings,
Winds,
Words
There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say,
But there's something about her.
And you don't know why,
But you're dying to try
You wanna,
Kiss the girl
Yes, you want her
Look at her you know you do
Possible she wants you too,
there is one way to ask her.
It don't take a word,
Not a single word, go on and
Kiss the Girl (sing wit' me now)
Frogs & Sebastien:
Sha la la la la la
My oh my
Look like the boy too shy
He ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Ain't that sad
Ain't it a shame, too bad
You're gonna miss the girl,
(dialogue)
Sebastien:
Now's your moment
(ya ya)
Floating in a blue lagoon
(ya ya ya)
Boy you better do it soon
No time will be better
(ya ya ya ya ya)
She don't say a word
And she won't say a word until you, kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Don't be scared
You've got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la
Don't stop now
Don't try to hide it how, you wanna
Kiss the girl (woah-woah!)
Sha la la la la la
Float along, and listen to the song
The song say, kiss the girl
Sha la la la la
The music play
Do what the music says
You gotta, kiss the girl
Monday, 4 October 2010
Hang myself again , may be this time I can feel.
My heads inside the rope again.
I'm eager to fall down.
Brought it all on myself again.
Some things just never change.
I did it again.
I always do it.
Inevitable,karma whatever you want to call it .
Either way I did it again.
That shall be all. Then......
Night
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I'm eager to fall down.
Brought it all on myself again.
Some things just never change.
I did it again.
I always do it.
Inevitable,karma whatever you want to call it .
Either way I did it again.
That shall be all. Then......
Night
XXXXXXXXXXX
Thursday, 30 September 2010
Scars ( David) -trustlights
Whenever the spirit from God came upon Saul, David would take his harp and play.
Then relief would come to Saul; he would feel better, and the evil spirit would leave him.....
*Guitar*
So David came to me last night.
Said he'd try and make it right.
Played a tune ,that made me weep.
Now I fear I'll never sleep.
Guess David lied.
My scars spell out your name.
Old or new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.
Blood that falls from the sky.
Tears that hide in your eyes.
All the same he said to me.
Always flowing secretly.
My scars spell out your name.
Old and new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.
David,David
play your tune.
How do you know what I've been through?
David,David
Sing your song.
You only judge what you know is wrong.
My scars spell your name always the same.
Always the same.
Always the same.
The evil spirit will leave him as it did once before.
But it never really disappeared.
It was there forever more.
Then relief would come to Saul; he would feel better, and the evil spirit would leave him.....
*Guitar*
So David came to me last night.
Said he'd try and make it right.
Played a tune ,that made me weep.
Now I fear I'll never sleep.
Guess David lied.
My scars spell out your name.
Old or new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.
Blood that falls from the sky.
Tears that hide in your eyes.
All the same he said to me.
Always flowing secretly.
My scars spell out your name.
Old and new always the same.
The first letter to the last and all those in between.
David,David
play your tune.
How do you know what I've been through?
David,David
Sing your song.
You only judge what you know is wrong.
My scars spell your name always the same.
Always the same.
Always the same.
The evil spirit will leave him as it did once before.
But it never really disappeared.
It was there forever more.
Wednesday, 29 September 2010
Only you can see
I'm so worried about you and I don't know what to do.
Maybe I need mental help , guess what so do you.
May be I was stupid thinking I could help.
Guess I'm just unwell in the head.
Is this better than being dead?
That's how this all seems.
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to to be.
So I can do the opposite of me.
My feelings will never let me be.
This is that hidden side of me that only you can see.
I only feel what's so unreal .
The light of each and every situation
You lied!
Your not always there for me.
Is this how it's meant to be?
Serves me right for learning to trust.
How stupid can I be?
This is the hidden side of me that only you can see.
Why don't you trust in me.
Like you made me trust in you.
You lied,you lied,you lied,you lied,you lied.
Your not always there for me.
you lied ,you lied ,you lied ,you lied.
You don't trust me.
I cried,I cried,I cry.
You lied, you lied ,you lie.
Your not always there for me.
Maybe I need mental help , guess what so do you.
May be I was stupid thinking I could help.
Guess I'm just unwell in the head.
Is this better than being dead?
That's how this all seems.
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to to be.
So I can do the opposite of me.
My feelings will never let me be.
This is that hidden side of me that only you can see.
I only feel what's so unreal .
The light of each and every situation
You lied!
Your not always there for me.
Is this how it's meant to be?
Serves me right for learning to trust.
How stupid can I be?
This is the hidden side of me that only you can see.
Why don't you trust in me.
Like you made me trust in you.
You lied,you lied,you lied,you lied,you lied.
Your not always there for me.
you lied ,you lied ,you lied ,you lied.
You don't trust me.
I cried,I cried,I cry.
You lied, you lied ,you lie.
Your not always there for me.
Thursday, 23 September 2010
Falling beyond the point of no return. Nothing to become and nothing left to burn.
I hadn't looked at my phone since lunch time,until I wrote my last blog.
Not that it matters just thought I'd say.
Gary Numan-one perfect lie
One
One perfect lie
Was it told too soon
And one
one perfect lie
Turned to stone
Cold mercy
I kneel down by your grave
I kneel down torn and guilty
Did I let you down
Say goodbye too soon
And did you understand
My mistake
Forgive me
I kneel down by your side
I kneel down scared and helpless
One perfect lie
Wrapped in kindness and tears
I wish I believed in your Heaven
One perfect lie
Led by blind faith and trust
If God has a heart He will find you
Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
I'm torn and guilty
It's getting dark in here - Elton John
It's getting dark in here
Don't want to leave
Shadow's falling
And I believe
Winds picking up
Thing's so unclear
I'm afraid of my shadow
And it's getting dark in here
I'm scared of strangers
On the street
World's so ugly
I can't breath
Moon's so spooky
I'm close to tears
I've lost it all
And it's getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
Don't talk about angels
Or how I'll be saved
I'm no coward
But I'm not that brave
Rags are blowing
Rain's getting near
I'm done with running
And it's getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
Yeah, the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
Not that it matters just thought I'd say.
Gary Numan-one perfect lie
One
One perfect lie
Was it told too soon
And one
one perfect lie
Turned to stone
Cold mercy
I kneel down by your grave
I kneel down torn and guilty
Did I let you down
Say goodbye too soon
And did you understand
My mistake
Forgive me
I kneel down by your side
I kneel down scared and helpless
One perfect lie
Wrapped in kindness and tears
I wish I believed in your Heaven
One perfect lie
Led by blind faith and trust
If God has a heart He will find you
Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
Torn and guilty
I'm torn and guilty
It's getting dark in here - Elton John
It's getting dark in here
Don't want to leave
Shadow's falling
And I believe
Winds picking up
Thing's so unclear
I'm afraid of my shadow
And it's getting dark in here
I'm scared of strangers
On the street
World's so ugly
I can't breath
Moon's so spooky
I'm close to tears
I've lost it all
And it's getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
Don't talk about angels
Or how I'll be saved
I'm no coward
But I'm not that brave
Rags are blowing
Rain's getting near
I'm done with running
And it's getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
And the wait isn't worth what I'm getting
Sometimes I feel I'm on fire
I've been handed a curse and a blessing
My life's been stripped down to the wire
And I'm trying to get back and hold on
Find someone somewhere who cares
But the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
Yeah, the sun's always setting on my life
And it's sure getting dark in here
+=(
I hate the way you read my mind,
like you've known me all the time.
I hate that your always right,
No matter what you say.
I hate the way your better than me,
in every single way.
I hate the way you lie,
like I can't see the difference.
I hate the way your not around,
when I need you most.
I hate the way you don't reply,
and that it always makes me cry.
And most of all I hate the way I care about you.
and that I would do anything for you.
No matter what you give me in return.
=(
Monday, 20 September 2010
We're smiling but we're close to tears.
Saturday was rubbish.
I had a pope party to go to.
20 questions on different popes....I was rubbish at it.
I got 3 out of all of the questions we played.
The only person worse at this game was my dad who got 0 right.
Haha!
If I hear the word pope again I will scream.
Today was wired.
It was nostalgic.
I walked the whole of Coedpoeth cause I didn't feel like going home.
It's strange how powerful memories can be.
How much they can influence what I do now and at the same time how much I never learn from them.
It's sad really but there we go.
Everyone lies.
We've all done it ...
But I feel really bad about this time.
Even though at the time I thought it was okay it didn't seem like that big a lie.
Now I know it was a mistake cause I feel bad.
I'm not sure which is worse...
The fact that I lied about something small that was really wrong.
or the fact that its back fired on me cause now I wish I had told you the truth.
Silly me.
XX
Nights to you all.
I had a pope party to go to.
20 questions on different popes....I was rubbish at it.
I got 3 out of all of the questions we played.
The only person worse at this game was my dad who got 0 right.
Haha!
If I hear the word pope again I will scream.
Today was wired.
It was nostalgic.
I walked the whole of Coedpoeth cause I didn't feel like going home.
It's strange how powerful memories can be.
How much they can influence what I do now and at the same time how much I never learn from them.
It's sad really but there we go.
Everyone lies.
We've all done it ...
But I feel really bad about this time.
Even though at the time I thought it was okay it didn't seem like that big a lie.
Now I know it was a mistake cause I feel bad.
I'm not sure which is worse...
The fact that I lied about something small that was really wrong.
or the fact that its back fired on me cause now I wish I had told you the truth.
Silly me.
XX
Nights to you all.
Thursday, 16 September 2010
Little girl lost,Little girl trust,Little girl feel what you must.
Yesterday me and another girl made a cake in the microwave and it came out like rubber.
It bounced like a ball. It was dead awesome.
Today was school
School is boring.
You broke the bridge.
Let the water through.
Cut the cord between me and you.
I should have seen that coming.
Those sort of things always do.
I wish you had told me trust was such a bitch.
You said I could tell you anything.
But trust is a two way thing.
It always hurts to see you upset.
It bounced like a ball. It was dead awesome.
Today was school
School is boring.
You broke the bridge.
Let the water through.
Cut the cord between me and you.
I should have seen that coming.
Those sort of things always do.
I wish you had told me trust was such a bitch.
You said I could tell you anything.
But trust is a two way thing.
It always hurts to see you upset.
Wednesday, 15 September 2010
Now I know the truth ..you just don't talk to me anymore.
So I went to school.
Then I went home.
Now I'm here soon I shall leave.
so.............
Thats it really.
Nine inch nails -Gave up
Perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
Forgot how it feels well almost
No one to blame always the same
Open my eyes wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize?
It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what i believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust i will betray
Give it to me i throw it away
After everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away
Then I went home.
Now I'm here soon I shall leave.
so.............
Thats it really.
Nine inch nails -Gave up
Perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
Forgot how it feels well almost
No one to blame always the same
Open my eyes wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize?
It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what i believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust i will betray
Give it to me i throw it away
After everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away
Monday, 13 September 2010
Evanescence-Imaginary
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clocks screaming,
monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As there falling
Tell a story
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Don't say I'm not in touch
With this rampant chaos
Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare i built my own world to escape
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot stop for the fear of silent lies.
Oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clocks screaming,
monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As there falling
Tell a story
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Don't say I'm not in touch
With this rampant chaos
Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare i built my own world to escape
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot stop for the fear of silent lies.
Oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Sunday, 12 September 2010
Cause my mum scremed when Enrique Iglesias came on the tv.
God bless her.
"Hero"
Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
Mack & Mabel- I Won't Send Roses.
I won't send roses
Or hold the door
I won't remember
Which dress you wore
My heart is too much in control
The lack of romance in my soul
Will turn you grey, kid
So stay away, kid
Forget my shoulder
When you're in need
Forgetting birthdays
Is guaranteed
And should I love you, you would be
The last to know
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so...
My pace is frantic
My temper's cross
With words romantic
I'm at a loss
I'd be the first one to agree
That I'm preoccupied with me
And it's inbred, kid
So keep your head, kid
In me you'll find things
Like guts and nerve
But not the kind of things
That you deserve
And so while there's a fighting chance
Just turn and go
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.
God bless her.
"Hero"
Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
Mack & Mabel- I Won't Send Roses.
I won't send roses
Or hold the door
I won't remember
Which dress you wore
My heart is too much in control
The lack of romance in my soul
Will turn you grey, kid
So stay away, kid
Forget my shoulder
When you're in need
Forgetting birthdays
Is guaranteed
And should I love you, you would be
The last to know
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so...
My pace is frantic
My temper's cross
With words romantic
I'm at a loss
I'd be the first one to agree
That I'm preoccupied with me
And it's inbred, kid
So keep your head, kid
In me you'll find things
Like guts and nerve
But not the kind of things
That you deserve
And so while there's a fighting chance
Just turn and go
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.
Saturday, 11 September 2010
Shadow kissed lover.
Empathy of night.
Taken away from the warmth of light.
You need love,as do I.
Sad little boy, hidden from life.
Nothing but a copy of what I've seen before.
Your eyes in the moon light.
Know only whats true.
Your lips so gentle against the folds of a lie.
Scars so deep fall into place.
I've never felt anything like this.
Empathy of night.
Taken away from the warmth of light.
You need love,as do I.
Sad little boy, hidden from life.
Nothing but a copy of what I've seen before.
Your eyes in the moon light.
Know only whats true.
Your lips so gentle against the folds of a lie.
Scars so deep fall into place.
I've never felt anything like this.
Friday, 10 September 2010
Monday, 6 September 2010
I come back again
Feelin so high,
Bitch, let me down.
I won't conform to your rules right now.
Break me and take me.
Do I look like I care?
The fact of the matter is you weren't there.
Discarded
God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again
Set me on fire cause I like to feel.
All the endeavors that don't matter to you.
She said she don't love you.
Well may be I don't care.
Let's be honest it weren't going anywhere.
Discarded
God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again
Again I try to help you out.
Again I get a kick in the mouth.
Again I try to make believe.
Again you got me on my knees.
A.g.a.i.n A.g.a.i.n
Again!
May be all I wanna help you out.
May be I'm the one it don't matter about.
May be I like small talk.
Again it's always my fault.
Again you push me to the ground.
Again I come back around.
Again bitch Again.
Always again.
Do you think I don't care.
Bet you wish I wasn't there.
I'll just keep coming back.
Again Again Again.
You can't get rid of me.
That easily.
I'll always come back again.
Again again again.
Bitch, let me down.
I won't conform to your rules right now.
Break me and take me.
Do I look like I care?
The fact of the matter is you weren't there.
Discarded
God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again
Set me on fire cause I like to feel.
All the endeavors that don't matter to you.
She said she don't love you.
Well may be I don't care.
Let's be honest it weren't going anywhere.
Discarded
God help me.
For not feeling your pain.
But I'm standing here in the pouring rain.
Can't help but see that I have nothing to gain.
You hit me down.
But I come back again
again
again again
Again I try to help you out.
Again I get a kick in the mouth.
Again I try to make believe.
Again you got me on my knees.
A.g.a.i.n A.g.a.i.n
Again!
May be all I wanna help you out.
May be I'm the one it don't matter about.
May be I like small talk.
Again it's always my fault.
Again you push me to the ground.
Again I come back around.
Again bitch Again.
Always again.
Do you think I don't care.
Bet you wish I wasn't there.
I'll just keep coming back.
Again Again Again.
You can't get rid of me.
That easily.
I'll always come back again.
Again again again.
Thursday, 2 September 2010
The past that holds me makes me weep.
While the rest of the world can soundly sleep.
I am alone.
But still not free.
You can't see what you mean to me.
I wish you knew that You need me.
Just as much as I need you.
Fallen Immortal.
Look into his eyes.
See the tears he refuses to cry.
When the day closes in
Feel the fear that radiates from within.
My winged immortal.
Fallen from grace.
Carry me till the day awakes.
As you leave me just know this.
You are the only on I miss.
While the rest of the world can soundly sleep.
I am alone.
But still not free.
You can't see what you mean to me.
I wish you knew that You need me.
Just as much as I need you.
Fallen Immortal.
Look into his eyes.
See the tears he refuses to cry.
When the day closes in
Feel the fear that radiates from within.
My winged immortal.
Fallen from grace.
Carry me till the day awakes.
As you leave me just know this.
You are the only on I miss.
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
:-)
I went to town yesterday.
I bought nothing much, just lunch.
Today I went out with my family cause my mum has to go back to work tomorrow.
Only problem was that when we got home my dad was grumpy cause he was hungry, So I've spent most of tonight trying to not make a noise and stay out of his way as much as possible.
So that's it really.
Well that and my dad used the last of the printer ink on a picture of a motor bike in front of a mountain.
So now I can't get my homework of my laptop.
Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm having problems waking up at 8 and on Friday I have to wake up at 6:30 for school.
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I bought nothing much, just lunch.
Today I went out with my family cause my mum has to go back to work tomorrow.
Only problem was that when we got home my dad was grumpy cause he was hungry, So I've spent most of tonight trying to not make a noise and stay out of his way as much as possible.
So that's it really.
Well that and my dad used the last of the printer ink on a picture of a motor bike in front of a mountain.
So now I can't get my homework of my laptop.
Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm having problems waking up at 8 and on Friday I have to wake up at 6:30 for school.
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Saturday, 28 August 2010
Shiver - Coldplay
So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cause you say you see straight through me, don't you?
But on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waitin' in line, just to see if you care
Oh…
Did you want me to change?
But I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you
So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?
And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care, if you care
Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don't you shiver
Don't you shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waitin' for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…
And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you
So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me
Cause I like this song!!!!
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But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cause you say you see straight through me, don't you?
But on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waitin' in line, just to see if you care
Oh…
Did you want me to change?
But I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you
So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?
And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care, if you care
Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don't you shiver
Don't you shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waitin' for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…
And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you
So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me
Cause I like this song!!!!
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I'm back !!!!!
I'm back.......... as you may have guessed.
So my holiday was like any other holiday really.
Only this time I have ABBA stuck in my head and I no the song list to their greatest hits album.
and on Friday my mum took me to see Westlife.
My mum was scary there.
Ohh ye and there where these 3 horses in he field about a mile off my caravan site.
Luna, Patch,and Butters.
Luna and Patch were Butter's mum and dad.
Luna was awsome.
And that's about it really
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'Do you Feel' - The Rocket Summer
I'm thinking about other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands can create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes us look great
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things I guess
I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things
Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your things
Yeah we all so many things
And I can't get past these things
Ohhh
So my holiday was like any other holiday really.
Only this time I have ABBA stuck in my head and I no the song list to their greatest hits album.
and on Friday my mum took me to see Westlife.
My mum was scary there.
Ohh ye and there where these 3 horses in he field about a mile off my caravan site.
Luna, Patch,and Butters.
Luna and Patch were Butter's mum and dad.
Luna was awsome.
And that's about it really
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'Do you Feel' - The Rocket Summer
I'm thinking about other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands can create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes us look great
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things I guess
I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things
Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things
Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your things
Yeah we all so many things
And I can't get past these things
Ohhh
Sunday, 22 August 2010
I am going on Holiday for the week. Doubt I will blog while I'm there cause chances are I wont have any signal cause I'm family like holidaying in the middle of no where.
If anyone needs me text me and if you do text me I will reply at some point.
Yesterday I went bowling with my uncle his girlfriend Nikki, my mum, dad and brother.
My uncle will have to come again cause he beat my dad at bowling.
Then we somehow got my dad on the dance mat. Lol!
It was very funny But I couldn't take a picture cause the light was rubbish.=(
My dads gone on his cycling on his push bike for a few miles. So he is going to be really grumpy in the car the whole way to our holiday.
So yes I shall most likely blog on Saturday night or Sunday if not.
Wish me luck!!!!
See ya.
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One of the songs my dad and brother danced to last night.
Goodbye Mr A - The Hoosiers
There’s a hole in your logic,
You who know all the answers, (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
You claim science ain’t magic, (Oo-oo-oo-oo)
And expect me to buy it
Goodbye Mr. A,
You promised you would love us, but you knew too much,
Goodbye Mr. A,
You had all the answers but no human touch,
Your life is subtraction,
Your number is up,
Your love is a fraction,
It’s not adding up.
So busy showing me where I’m wrong,
You forgot to switch your feelings on, (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
So, so superior, are you not,
You love a little bit but you forgot
Goodbye Mr. A,
You promised you would love us, but you knew too much,
Goodbye Mr. A,
You had all the answers but no human touch,
Your life is subtraction,
Your number is up,
Your love is a fraction,
It’s not adding up.
If anyone needs me text me and if you do text me I will reply at some point.
Yesterday I went bowling with my uncle his girlfriend Nikki, my mum, dad and brother.
My uncle will have to come again cause he beat my dad at bowling.
Then we somehow got my dad on the dance mat. Lol!
It was very funny But I couldn't take a picture cause the light was rubbish.=(
My dads gone on his cycling on his push bike for a few miles. So he is going to be really grumpy in the car the whole way to our holiday.
So yes I shall most likely blog on Saturday night or Sunday if not.
Wish me luck!!!!
See ya.
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One of the songs my dad and brother danced to last night.
Goodbye Mr A - The Hoosiers
There’s a hole in your logic,
You who know all the answers, (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
You claim science ain’t magic, (Oo-oo-oo-oo)
And expect me to buy it
Goodbye Mr. A,
You promised you would love us, but you knew too much,
Goodbye Mr. A,
You had all the answers but no human touch,
Your life is subtraction,
Your number is up,
Your love is a fraction,
It’s not adding up.
So busy showing me where I’m wrong,
You forgot to switch your feelings on, (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
So, so superior, are you not,
You love a little bit but you forgot
Goodbye Mr. A,
You promised you would love us, but you knew too much,
Goodbye Mr. A,
You had all the answers but no human touch,
Your life is subtraction,
Your number is up,
Your love is a fraction,
It’s not adding up.
Thursday, 19 August 2010
You brought it all back. Each dark thing I've done.
Tonight I held hands with fear.
Kissed the one who pulls the trigger .
You think I'm brave, you say I'm strong.
How I wish you weren't so wrong.
Hold me closer,
sweet surrender.
Help me be what I am not.
I cannot trust like I did before.
Be to me how you said you would be.
I need to move on
Speak the words left unspoken.
I'm shit scared of her.
I'm going on holiday soon
At least it will be quiet.
I'm sorry I couldn't talk to you.
I guess it's too soon.
To tell you all that I want without space in between.
I thought I could tell you what made me who I am.
Guess I still can't let you in.
I'm sorry that I lied to you again.
Coldplay -Talk
Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
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Kissed the one who pulls the trigger .
You think I'm brave, you say I'm strong.
How I wish you weren't so wrong.
Hold me closer,
sweet surrender.
Help me be what I am not.
I cannot trust like I did before.
Be to me how you said you would be.
I need to move on
Speak the words left unspoken.
I'm shit scared of her.
I'm going on holiday soon
At least it will be quiet.
I'm sorry I couldn't talk to you.
I guess it's too soon.
To tell you all that I want without space in between.
I thought I could tell you what made me who I am.
Guess I still can't let you in.
I'm sorry that I lied to you again.
Coldplay -Talk
Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
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Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Tuesday, 17 August 2010
Nothing left to say, I need you.
I've noticed that the lyrics of this song Link to ppl so I'm going to make different colours different ppl cause I can.
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
White just applies to lots of ppl though.
Why trust?
Why ask why trust?
cause trust sucks you trust someone. You let them in, you let them know stuff
So they hurt you and tell everyone every single thing you told them.
So then for a while you stop.
Only to start the whole thing again .
So why the hell do we do it again.
Why am I doing it again?
Cause I trust you won' t hurt me.
But why would I trust that in the first place.
cause I'm need someone who knows about my shit and not judge me and it don't matter that your gonna hurt me cause I'm human.
She made me burn and that's not right.
Why'd she do that.
None of this makes sense.
Night
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Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
White just applies to lots of ppl though.
Why trust?
Why ask why trust?
cause trust sucks you trust someone. You let them in, you let them know stuff
So they hurt you and tell everyone every single thing you told them.
So then for a while you stop.
Only to start the whole thing again .
So why the hell do we do it again.
Why am I doing it again?
Cause I trust you won' t hurt me.
But why would I trust that in the first place.
cause I'm need someone who knows about my shit and not judge me and it don't matter that your gonna hurt me cause I'm human.
She made me burn and that's not right.
Why'd she do that.
None of this makes sense.
Night
XXXX
Sunday, 15 August 2010
Humans are vulnerable because they're capable of being hurt.
I did sod all today.
Cause I sorted out what I needed too.
I think it worked.
Only time will tell.
Kate said it worked for a very different reason in fact she said it hasn't worked at all.
But I don't care much at this point.
I will later cause I will question myself .
Oh well.
I'm gonna go get Ice cream.
I'm not insane
and I'm not in love.
I just miss you too much.
Cause I sorted out what I needed too.
I think it worked.
Only time will tell.
Kate said it worked for a very different reason in fact she said it hasn't worked at all.
But I don't care much at this point.
I will later cause I will question myself .
Oh well.
I'm gonna go get Ice cream.
I'm not insane
and I'm not in love.
I just miss you too much.
Friday, 13 August 2010
A million love songs later, and here I am trying to tell you that I care.
I spent the past 2 days cleaning the Beavers cupboard at the Scout hut. It took forever to clean the damn thing.
We found letters from 1984!!!!!
My minds been going like a train for days.
I can't sit still for more than 5 minutes.
It's really annoying Can't think of anything. Without going back to the start all over again.
But when I got home I thought of something.
Which meant I went back to get the stuff I needed that we don't have at home.
Not saying it will work but it did last time. This needs to be on a bigger scale.
But it will help.
I need it to help me to help him.
Tonights the night I shall except it all.
and tomoz I will go out and sort the other part for the healing.
It should help. I hope it helps.
Anyway...
That's it really
XXX
Ohh
And thanks Hannah you helped me sort out some stuff.
Take that- A million love songs
( I've had it on all day)
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Put your head against my life
What do you hear?
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year
Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared
A million love songs later
Here i am trying to tell you that i care
Million love songs later
Here i am here i am
Million love songs later
Here i am
Looking to the future now
This is what i see
A million chances pass me by
A million chances to hold you
Take me back take me back
To where i used to be
And hide away from all my truth
Through the light i see
A million love songs later
And here i am trying to tell you that i care
Million love songs later
We found letters from 1984!!!!!
My minds been going like a train for days.
I can't sit still for more than 5 minutes.
It's really annoying Can't think of anything. Without going back to the start all over again.
But when I got home I thought of something.
Which meant I went back to get the stuff I needed that we don't have at home.
Not saying it will work but it did last time. This needs to be on a bigger scale.
But it will help.
I need it to help me to help him.
Tonights the night I shall except it all.
and tomoz I will go out and sort the other part for the healing.
It should help. I hope it helps.
Anyway...
That's it really
XXX
Ohh
And thanks Hannah you helped me sort out some stuff.
Take that- A million love songs
( I've had it on all day)
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Put your head against my life
What do you hear?
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year
Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared
A million love songs later
Here i am trying to tell you that i care
Million love songs later
Here i am here i am
Million love songs later
Here i am
Looking to the future now
This is what i see
A million chances pass me by
A million chances to hold you
Take me back take me back
To where i used to be
And hide away from all my truth
Through the light i see
A million love songs later
And here i am trying to tell you that i care
Million love songs later
Wednesday, 11 August 2010
Worlds shall touch and live as one. Or they may explode.
We shall walk together again like the sunlight takes the moon.
The sun of more importance than the moon.
Relays on the only the sun to light it for its job.
The two shall always be together but apart for ever.
But the moon won't ever let the sun go.
Because the moon values the sun to much,is to grateful for it's warm, tender light.
The caring it does not deserve, to do a job it doesn't really need to do.
Therefore the moon always needs the sun;
and I will always need you.
Alone we walk as one.
2005.
Yesterday I had to go to the duck race in Nant Mill to do a stall with my mum.
It was a laugh me and her trying to put up the gazibo!!!!!
It was a long day though cause we got there at 8:30am and didnt leave till 5:00pm.
But god nows how long the ppl from the hog roast had been there cause they were there and had set up all there stall by the time we got there : (
We made 100£ though so we should be okay.
I've got to go and help clean out the Beavers closet.
If I don't come back I'm stuck in Narnia.
Or I'm dead under the crap thats in there.
So yes anyway.
Hope your all having a good life.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
The sun of more importance than the moon.
Relays on the only the sun to light it for its job.
The two shall always be together but apart for ever.
But the moon won't ever let the sun go.
Because the moon values the sun to much,is to grateful for it's warm, tender light.
The caring it does not deserve, to do a job it doesn't really need to do.
Therefore the moon always needs the sun;
and I will always need you.
Alone we walk as one.
2005.
Yesterday I had to go to the duck race in Nant Mill to do a stall with my mum.
It was a laugh me and her trying to put up the gazibo!!!!!
It was a long day though cause we got there at 8:30am and didnt leave till 5:00pm.
But god nows how long the ppl from the hog roast had been there cause they were there and had set up all there stall by the time we got there : (
We made 100£ though so we should be okay.
I've got to go and help clean out the Beavers closet.
If I don't come back I'm stuck in Narnia.
Or I'm dead under the crap thats in there.
So yes anyway.
Hope your all having a good life.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Monday, 9 August 2010
I just murdered a Dolphin!!!
...............................................................................................
: (
An inflatable one!
: (
An inflatable one!
My brother won't stop going on about the hammer and pillow fight!
He keeps hitting me on the head with the blow up hammer.
I blame Hannah.
Yet I'm building Lego for him cause he can't do it himself.
LOL!!!!
And the P on my laptop wont work and I have to hit it to get the damn letter.
The killers-Tanqulize
Silently reflection turns my world to stone
patiently correction leaves us all alone.
Gtg anyway Got to go build more Lego stuff!!!
XXXXXXX
He keeps hitting me on the head with the blow up hammer.
I blame Hannah.
Yet I'm building Lego for him cause he can't do it himself.
LOL!!!!
And the P on my laptop wont work and I have to hit it to get the damn letter.
The killers-Tanqulize
Silently reflection turns my world to stone
patiently correction leaves us all alone.
Gtg anyway Got to go build more Lego stuff!!!
XXXXXXX
Saturday, 7 August 2010
Thursday, 5 August 2010
****
Hey.
It was my dads birthday yesterday.
He gets worse every year.
Hehe.
I have nothing to blog about so ye.......
Bye!!
XXXXXXX
Soppy,young, romantic fool.
Love and loss has tainted you.
Sleep with the guy if he feeds you a line.
Kiss the girl but your wasting your time.
Roses and violets always die out.
But forgiveness for you are three words, placed right.
Keep going back ,but never ask why?
It never works out cause they'll always lie.
Tell me you love her.
I'd laugh in your face.
Do you know why you do this in the first place?
Say that your burned by shadows of the past.
But we both know why it never lasts.
It was my dads birthday yesterday.
He gets worse every year.
Hehe.
I have nothing to blog about so ye.......
Bye!!
XXXXXXX
Soppy,young, romantic fool.
Love and loss has tainted you.
Sleep with the guy if he feeds you a line.
Kiss the girl but your wasting your time.
Roses and violets always die out.
But forgiveness for you are three words, placed right.
Keep going back ,but never ask why?
It never works out cause they'll always lie.
Tell me you love her.
I'd laugh in your face.
Do you know why you do this in the first place?
Say that your burned by shadows of the past.
But we both know why it never lasts.
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
Coedpoeth gossip.
Theres been a lot of activity on my street recently.
On Saturday the armed police were walking up and down our street and there were two either end of the street.
Turns out at about lunch they raided on of the houses on our street.
The only problem was he was working in the post office so we told them where he was and they went to the post office and arrested him.
No ones to sure why.
Most are saying drugs.
Anyhow he was out next day.
On Monday the extension on the hose next to us was on fire.
Turns out the guy who owns it had left the chip pan on and fallen asleep.
There was smoke coming out his roof tiles.
After that the fire brigade came and an ambulance.
His extension is gutted and that part of the street smells of smoke.
So with that and the Ecclestons bakery closing which means we lose a big bakery and the shop.
We have had a very interesting week.
=)
Affirmation lyrics-Savage Garden
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
On Saturday the armed police were walking up and down our street and there were two either end of the street.
Turns out at about lunch they raided on of the houses on our street.
The only problem was he was working in the post office so we told them where he was and they went to the post office and arrested him.
No ones to sure why.
Most are saying drugs.
Anyhow he was out next day.
On Monday the extension on the hose next to us was on fire.
Turns out the guy who owns it had left the chip pan on and fallen asleep.
There was smoke coming out his roof tiles.
After that the fire brigade came and an ambulance.
His extension is gutted and that part of the street smells of smoke.
So with that and the Ecclestons bakery closing which means we lose a big bakery and the shop.
We have had a very interesting week.
=)
Affirmation lyrics-Savage Garden
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
Sunday, 1 August 2010
In my dreams you whisper softly. The words you won't say out loud.
You know how this begun.
You know how this will end.
But until then we can fill in the time.
I'll colour your space,
and you colour mine.
My mums gonna kill my dad soon I can see it coming.
At least the house will be quieter!!
I cleaned my room today, and sorted all my stuff.
So it looks better but it isn't ready yet.
I've got to go out on a family dinner tomoz.
My dads side of the family.
Me and my cousin have decided to go get pissed in the woods behind the place though.
So hopefully it won't be too bad.
So yep thats it really.
Miss you all
I'm fed up with my family.
=(
XXXXXXX
You know how this will end.
But until then we can fill in the time.
I'll colour your space,
and you colour mine.
My mums gonna kill my dad soon I can see it coming.
At least the house will be quieter!!
I cleaned my room today, and sorted all my stuff.
So it looks better but it isn't ready yet.
I've got to go out on a family dinner tomoz.
My dads side of the family.
Me and my cousin have decided to go get pissed in the woods behind the place though.
So hopefully it won't be too bad.
So yep thats it really.
Miss you all
I'm fed up with my family.
=(
XXXXXXX
Friday, 30 July 2010
Not much point in this.
Why am I crying?
I'm really not sure whats wrong with me.
MMMMM
I'm also not sure why I'm blogging either.
Other than to tell you that the ppl I was babysitting for gave me 30£.
I was happy and they told me they had another job for me next week if I wanted it. So more food for me.
I'll be the size of 4 houses by the time I go back to school.
I did nothing today.
So ye nothing to report.
Ummmm....
Sorry that was a really pointless blog.
Gdnight.
I'm really not sure whats wrong with me.
MMMMM
I'm also not sure why I'm blogging either.
Other than to tell you that the ppl I was babysitting for gave me 30£.
I was happy and they told me they had another job for me next week if I wanted it. So more food for me.
I'll be the size of 4 houses by the time I go back to school.
I did nothing today.
So ye nothing to report.
Ummmm....
Sorry that was a really pointless blog.
Gdnight.
Thursday, 29 July 2010
It's me!!!!!!!! Well who did you expect.
I'm babysitting at the moment . They said I could use the Internet and help myself to their TV, and food.
So that's what I'm doing.
The dads a chef and he said I could eat anything in the top of the fridge cause he brings it from his work and his family are sick of it.
His brownies and cakes are to die for. I have eaten way to much. But I don't care cause it's damn good food.
Other than that I've done nothing.
The kids in this house are to well-behaved it's almost unnatural.I'm expecting the house to get set on fire or something cause they are like to good. I know I shouldn't complain. But it's not right. Their in bed and asleep.
It's like ohhh.
This is the easiest job I've done in ages.
HAHA!!!
I don't even care how much they pay me.
XXXXXXX
It's colder in the cupboard.
Ellis's monologue
I can't put it into words how your tears make me hurt.May be my reasons for this are selfish because if you don't hurt I don't hurt. But that's to simple. Even when you don't hurt I worry. These feelings go beyond the normal calls of friendship. Beyond even the normal calls of love. My constant need to be sure that you are not in pain is a compulsion. I have met nobody on this earth who can say they feel as I do. To at least know that another can rely on you is the best feeling I own. It's the only one that makes me believe I have any good left inside my barren misused body, and when you do open up to me for a second I believe I am not the person I have become. That I am as caring and kind as you. I have a purpose and that is to listen and to be aloud to understand ,you. How you live and think and act and just be.
I what you to be happy. Even if that meant you hurting me I'd take it ,If it makes you feel better.
If you being happy meant you never wanting to see me again I'd do it. I'd run and hide and never darken your door again as long as I knew you were happy and safe.
I wish you knew this but if I told you I know what you'd think.What anyone would think.Even if I begged you and told you it was not like that. You wouldn't believe me. So I just won't tell you. I'll say only one thing to you and that is I'm always there for you. No matter what. Even if you never know how true that is, as long as you know I'm here that's all that really matters.
So that's what I'm doing.
The dads a chef and he said I could eat anything in the top of the fridge cause he brings it from his work and his family are sick of it.
His brownies and cakes are to die for. I have eaten way to much. But I don't care cause it's damn good food.
Other than that I've done nothing.
The kids in this house are to well-behaved it's almost unnatural.I'm expecting the house to get set on fire or something cause they are like to good. I know I shouldn't complain. But it's not right. Their in bed and asleep.
It's like ohhh.
This is the easiest job I've done in ages.
HAHA!!!
I don't even care how much they pay me.
XXXXXXX
It's colder in the cupboard.
Ellis's monologue
I can't put it into words how your tears make me hurt.May be my reasons for this are selfish because if you don't hurt I don't hurt. But that's to simple. Even when you don't hurt I worry. These feelings go beyond the normal calls of friendship. Beyond even the normal calls of love. My constant need to be sure that you are not in pain is a compulsion. I have met nobody on this earth who can say they feel as I do. To at least know that another can rely on you is the best feeling I own. It's the only one that makes me believe I have any good left inside my barren misused body, and when you do open up to me for a second I believe I am not the person I have become. That I am as caring and kind as you. I have a purpose and that is to listen and to be aloud to understand ,you. How you live and think and act and just be.
I what you to be happy. Even if that meant you hurting me I'd take it ,If it makes you feel better.
If you being happy meant you never wanting to see me again I'd do it. I'd run and hide and never darken your door again as long as I knew you were happy and safe.
I wish you knew this but if I told you I know what you'd think.What anyone would think.Even if I begged you and told you it was not like that. You wouldn't believe me. So I just won't tell you. I'll say only one thing to you and that is I'm always there for you. No matter what. Even if you never know how true that is, as long as you know I'm here that's all that really matters.
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
HIM-Join Me
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we´re considering
escape from this world
and we've waited for so long
for this moment to come
were so anxious to be together
together in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
This world is a cruel place
and we´re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we´re considering
escape from this world
and we've waited for so long
for this moment to come
were so anxious to be together
together in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
This world is a cruel place
and we´re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
this live ain´t worth living
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die
Baby join me in death
Won´t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
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