It's me!!!!!!!! Well who did you expect.

I'm babysitting at the moment . They said I could use the Internet and help myself to their TV, and food.
So that's what I'm doing.
The dads a chef and he said I could eat anything in the top of the fridge cause he brings it from his work and his family are sick of it.
His brownies and cakes are to die for. I have eaten way to much. But I don't care cause it's damn good food.
Other than that I've done nothing.
The kids in this house are to well-behaved it's almost unnatural.I'm expecting the house to get set on fire or something cause they are like to good. I know I shouldn't complain. But it's not right. Their in bed and asleep.
It's like ohhh.
This is the easiest job I've done in ages.
HAHA!!!
I don't even care how much they pay me.
XXXXXXX


It's colder in the cupboard.

Ellis's monologue


I can't put it into words how your tears make me hurt.May be my reasons for this are selfish because if you don't hurt I don't hurt. But that's to simple. Even when you  don't hurt I worry. These feelings go beyond the normal calls of friendship. Beyond even the normal calls of love. My constant need to be sure that you are not in pain is a compulsion. I have met nobody on this earth who can say they feel as I do. To at least know that another can rely on you is the best feeling I own. It's the only one that makes me believe I have any good left inside my barren misused body, and when you do open up to me for a second I believe I am not the person I have become. That I am as caring and kind as you. I have a purpose and that is to listen and to be aloud to understand ,you. How you live and think and act and just be.
I what you to be happy. Even if that meant you hurting me I'd take it ,If it makes you feel better.
If you being happy meant you never wanting to see me again I'd do it. I'd run and hide and never darken your door again as long as I knew you were happy and safe.
I wish you knew this but if I told you I know what you'd think.What anyone would think.Even if I begged you and told you it was not like that. You wouldn't believe me. So I just won't tell you. I'll say only one thing to you and that is I'm always there for you. No matter what.  Even if you never know how true that is, as long as you know I'm here that's all that really matters.