If you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?

Just that really.
Have you ever just stopped and thought I have nothing to show for the past 3 years of my life. Not so much on a memories/emotion level.
But to others as in accomplishments and achievements. I have done nothing in the last few years.
I have no job. Still in education living with my parents. Nothing to show if I died  tonight that I didn't have years ago. If anything I have less.
I have life experience now but its almost a secret. Who else knows about that? No-one.
Sitting in the same spot with a laptop.
I have more but I have less.
 Not necessarily a bad thing but not necessarily a good thing either. Just a thing ... an observation so to speak.
Too make me wonder what I will be doing 3 years from now. If I will be doing the same thing. If I will have more but less.

Bastille-Pompeii

We were caught up and lost in all of our vices
In your pose as the dust settled around us

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Grey clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
If you close your eyes

Eh-eh-o eh-o [4x]

Oh where do we begin?
The rubble or our sins?
Oh where do we begin?
The rubble or our sins?

How am I gonna be an optimist about this?